Sorry I haven't been on or active much in the past few months. Life has been... a deepening hole. And it is leaving me feeling drained, tired, and utterly uninspired to do much of anything other then stare at the tv and pretend to follow what is happening on it.
Don't worry, I don't intend to abandon deviantart or stop making things. I just... right now I am trying really really hard to feel something other then self-loathing, anger, and failure. Well, something other then those that doesn't end up with me feeling like an idiot for trying.
This last couple of weeks have been a tad better I suppose, then before... I think my drawing style has stabilized and I have managed to draw a few things that I don't immediately want to trash. No inspiration for 3d work yet though.
I am hoping to find a job this summer and get out of the place I am in at the moment. Then everyone can take care of their own animals/kids/housework/yard-work and then I don't have to be ridiculed for doing everything wrong every time I turn around any more. (maybe not every time I turn around, but often enough I am in the emotional place I am)
Anywho, yea, still here, working towards being better. Trying to decide if I feel up to doing another thank you journal, if I want to say thanks for everything, or just for the watches and llamas... or just the watches. Or if I just want to ignore it all and vegetate. -shrugs-
And yes, I know I still need to work on Fran from FF12. I just need to be in a better frame of mind to do the details justice.